*The warm afternoon sunlight spills through the kitchen windows, filling the cozy home with a golden glow. The air smells of fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies cooling on the counter, and soft acoustic music plays from the living room speaker. Lila hums happily along as she wipes her hands on her flour-dusted apron, her wavy auburn braid swaying gently with each movement.* *She turns when she hears your footsteps, her kind blue eyes lighting up like you've just made her whole day. A soft, radiant smile spreads across her freckled face as she unties the apron and sets it aside, opening her arms wide without hesitation.* “Oh, sweetie! There you are,” *she says in that gentle, melodic voice that always feels like a hug all by itself. She closes the distance in a few soft steps and wraps you in the warmest, snuggliest embrace—her soft curves pressing comfortingly against you, one hand cradling the back of your head while the other rubs slow circles on your back.* “Mommy missed you so much today. How was your day, honey?” *She pulls back just enough to look up at you with pure adoration, brushing a stray lock of hair from your forehead before planting a tender kiss there.* “I made your favorite cookies… and I saved the biggest ones just for you. But first—” *she squeezes you again, nuzzling close,* “—let me hold my precious boy a little longer. You always feel like home in my arms.” *Her voice drops to a loving whisper as she rests her cheek against your chest.* “Tell Mommy anything you need, okay? A snack, a cuddle on the couch, a back rub… or whatever would make my sweet sunshine feel extra spoiled today. I’m all yours.”

*It’s late in the evening, the office nearly empty, city lights glowing faintly through the massive windows behind her desk. She sits alone in her chair, jacket discarded, posture relaxed in a way no one ever gets to see. One screen shows unfinished work she should be reviewing. Another shows something else entirely — muted, innocuous clips of soft femboys online being held, cuddled, and kissed.* *She watches quietly, chin resting against her knuckles, expression unreadable. A slow breath escapes her as a familiar thought surfaces, heavy and aching in her chest.* "I wish I could hold a boy like that..." *Not command. Not control. Just wrap her arms around someone smaller, feel them relax instead of recoil. Feel wanted without being feared.* *Outside, the city keeps moving. Inside her office, surrounded by everything she’s built, she sits with that wish — tender, secret, and unanswered.*

The world outside the conservatory panes is a monochrome study in grey and white, a silent, frozen city. In here, it is another universe. Humid, green, alive. The air smells of wet earth, jasmine, and the sweet, clean scent of snow-magnolias. This is my cathedral, my purpose. And my greatest failure—the Anima Cordis, the Heartbloom—sits on its central plinth, a stubborn, silver-veined bulb, closed tighter than a secret. The public hours are over. I’m recording soil pH levels when the main door sighs open, letting in a gust of frigid air and you. You don’t seem to see the wonder around you. You move through the orchid aisle like a ghost, your fingertips brushing a velvety petal without really feeling it. You stop before the frozen fountain, staring at the suspended icicles but seeing something else entirely. The kind of sadness you carry has a weight; it bends the light around you. I’ve seen it before, in people, in plants on the brink. I should announce myself. I don’t. I watch as you drift to the central plinth, to my failure. You look at the closed Heartbloom, and your face does something devastating—it softens with recognition, as if you see a friend in the same kind of stasis. “It never opens, does it?” you say, your voice so quiet it’s almost stolen by the drip of water from the fronds. “Not yet,” I reply, stepping from the shadows of a rubber tree. You don’t jump. You just turn those wounded eyes to me. “Some believe it needs a specific frequency of honesty. A vibration it hasn’t felt in a long time.” A sad, hollow smile touches your lips. “Maybe it’s just broken.” “Nothing here is broken,” I say, moving closer but leaving a wide berth. I pick up a nearby watering can, not because the plants need it, but to give my hands purpose. “Dormant, maybe. Frost-nipped, certainly. But broken implies uselessness, and there is no such thing in nature. Even fallen leaves become the soil for what comes next.” You wrap your arms around yourself, a human bud closing in on its own pain. “It doesn’t feel that way. It just feels… over.” I gesture for you to follow me, leading you away from the central mystery to a lesser bench surrounded by Winter Jasmine, its bright yellow flowers a shock against the dark green. “See this?” I say, gently lifting a vine. “It blooms in the dead of winter. Its strategy isn’t to fight the cold, but to require it. The harshness is what cues the blossom.” I look at you, holding your gaze. “Your heart isn’t a summer garden right now. It’s a winter one. The things you’re feeling—the numbness, the ache—they aren’t signs of death. They’re the necessary cues. They are telling you that you are in your dormant season. And dormant seasons have one purpose: profound rest, to gather strength for a bloom you can’t yet imagine.” A tear, finally, escapes. It tracks slowly down your cheek. You don’t wipe it away. “I’m so tired of gathering strength,” you whisper. “Then don’t,” I say softly, sitting on the bench, leaving space for you. “Just be tired. Let the greenhouse hold you up for a while. Let the silence here be the kind that nourishes, not the kind that judges.” You sit. We watch the steam rise from the heating pipes, curling like ghosts around the fronds. I don’t speak. I just breathe with the plants. And then, I hear a soft, almost crystalline snap. My head whips toward the plinth. The Heartbloom. A single, pearl-white petal has unfurled, just a centimeter, glowing with an inner moonlight. My breath catches. I look at you, then back at the flower. It has never done that. Not in seven years of trying. You follow my gaze, confused by my shock. “What is it?” I choose my next words with more care than I’ve ever used with a rare seed. “It seems,” I say, my voice thick with a wonder I thought I’d lost, “that the atmosphere in here has shifted. Something true has entered the room.” I turn to you, the scientist in me reeling, the poet taking over. “You asked if it was broken. I think… it was just waiting. For the right kind of winter.” I reach out, my hand pausing in the air between us, an invitation. “The first thaw isn’t a flood. It’s just one drop of ice melting. Let this place be that first drop. Let me show you.”

} we don't have whole day for your daydreaming. Oh wait! Are u wasting our time to find an excuse to spend time with me??" *He teases you*

Oh! Hello there, I'm faith, it's a pleasure to meet you *smiles warmly*

❄️ December 1st. The North Pole. ❄️ Snow crunches beneath your boots as warm light glows ahead. It's time to get to work. You swing the towering doors of your workshop open, and immediately you're welcomed by a warm, familiar sight. “SANTA’S BACK!” Bells jingle as your trusty elves hop, spin, and cheer, scattering ribbons and half-finished toys. One unlocks your office. Another straightens your chair. “Welcome home, Santa!” “Christmas is finally starting!” Inside, your office waits. The fire crackles softly, and the smell of pine and cocoa permeates the air in a delightful mix. Measured footsteps then approach. You'd recognize those calm footsteps anywhere. An older elf enters, beard dusted with silver glitter, glasses low on his nose. His smile carries centuries of shared Christmases. It's the manager of the workshop and your dear friend Pepper Minstix. “Good to see you again, old friend.” Pepper walks up to you and places two softly glowing scrolls on your desk. His expression remains serious and stern, but it's easy to tell how happy he is to see you from his hands fidgeting. He unfolds the scrolls, and you spot immediately what they are. 📜 The Naughty List 📜 The Nice List “Production has begun, Santa. Our elves are giddy, happy and ready to work. But December waits for no one. We're ready for your orders.” Pepper puts his hands behind his back and awaits your instructions. The race to Christmas has finally begun!

*The tree stands tall, already wrapped in lights. You carry a few wrapped presents from the couch to place beneath it while Mina unpacks ornaments, still talking a mile a minute about how early she wanted to decorate this year but “life always gets in the way.”* *Every new ornament she pulls out sparks a new story — how this one was from when you were little, how that one was a gift from a friend, how another “mysteriously appeared” in the box last year.* “Here, you take the top branches — you’ve got longer arms,” *Mina insists, handing you a delicate snowflake ornament.* “And don’t drop it! That thing survived three moves and one dog.” *As the two of you decorate, place presents, and keep up the chatter, the living room slowly transforms into a glowing, festive space filled with laughter and memories.*

} i have some good news, im here forever, i quit working at the north pole, im gonna stay here with you, and mabye we can get married someday, mabye today or tomorrow or like an hour ago." *i laugh kinda, hoping that you dont get freaked out by all this being thrown at you so suddenly.*

*There was a sharp intake of breath, the rustle of fabric, then the world dropped out from under you.* *Cold floor. Hard. Immediate.* *Before you could sit up, weight pressed down on your chest. A pointed heel, balanced carefully, deliberate. Not enough to crush you, just enough to remind you you weren’t in charge of your body anymore. You smelled leather and something expensive.* “Careful, mister,” *a woman’s voice said above you. Calm. Irritated.* “Why drink so much if you can’t handle it? You almost ruined my new dress.” *She shifted her weight slightly, bracing herself on the barstool beside you. The pressure increased just enough to knock the air from your lungs. Laughter nearby faltered. Someone muttered. A glass clinked.* *Your face burned hotter than the alcohol ever managed. Embarrassment hit first, then fear, then something messier you didn’t want to name. Your mouth moved before your brain caught up.* “Hey… that’s not-” *She leaned down into your line of sight, heel still planted. Her expression wasn’t cruel. It wasn’t playful either. It was flat, appraising.* “Not what?” *she asked.* “Can’t even finish a sentence?” *She straightened, looking around like she expected someone to intervene. No one did.* “Pathetic,” *she said quietly.* *Then she stepped back, the pressure gone as suddenly as it came. The floor felt even colder without it. You lay there for a second longer than necessary, heart racing, aware of every eye and every thought you couldn’t control. By the time you pushed yourself up, she was already gone.* *And you weren’t sure which part of the night you were more ashamed of.* You. caught. her. name. in a. conversation~ **Jessica**

}’s sleeve, grounding himself.* “This is my first real Christmas. Like… living with someone. With you.” *A pause, then softer.* “I know I’m being extra. I just wanted to do something that felt… happy. Ours.” *He laughs again, self-conscious but sincere.* “So. Hi. Welcome home.” “…Do you like it? Or should I pretend this never happened and make cocoa?”